the happy wanderer

yours?

Perhaps. that it is and will be, i pray.

but for now, me thinks, it’s amazing the peace that God provides at the end of the day. The music’s on shuffle… goo goo dolls plays.. SNSD plays… Jason Derulo comes up.. and then The Stand by Hillsong United.. and suddenly, I’m conscious of the music that’s coming out of my speakers.. (Music that usually just goes through one ear and out the other because I always have it on and it’s become such a natural part of my surroundings..)

Peace & Serenity.. Hope for the new morning to come

I love John Cho. so fahnee & brilliant! aren’t there any more john cho’s left at berkeley? loll

and yep, that is all i have to say. i think i ran too much at the rsf today, and now i can’t fall asleep…

to be a korean is to always struggle to be a mainstream follower… sigh… there’s always a “pop” attached to that K. There seems to be no individuality or sense of one’s own self in Korean media… thought… news… culture. everything. jeebus. lol the worst place to be if you want to discover who you really are. ( i still like my kpop, but im not so proud of knowing the latestkpop hit singles or celebs or shows out now…. quite so.)

glad I have the “American” to attach to my being Korean. balances out a bit..

anyway.

i wish i wasn’t so lazy so i could take up sports like Kick-boxing and Hip-hop dancing. Those are 2 things I’d really like to do. especially dancing. man. i wish i could do routine dances. it only amounts to practice and some sense of rhythm.. and flexibility.. and coordination.. lol. i envy those asian girls on dance teams like UCLA’s or yknow, like Irvine’s Kaba Modernnnn. gah… but who has the time, or management skills, to dedciate to all that popping and what not. you do? cool, i don’t [have the management skills].

it’s 2:30 am. i had no caffeine, but i am wide awake and restless. wanna go kick & box. and dance.

Excited// that mommy’s coming to SF tmrw.

So i vaguely planned the next 2-3 days like what to eat and where to walk around

but even before she’s arrived, now I’m

Sad// that she’ll be leaving on Wednesday.

sighh such a short time, but she has to go back to work because of a Show this week. Must savor the time given to us.

and today’s sermon message was so powerful. Power… do not try to obtain it. Live humbly porfa. Please let God protect you from Evil and keep you near..

If I could choose any other occupation, freely, with no strings attached– just based on how it appeals to me & my interests, I would want to become

1. Film director (slash korean drama director lol)

2. Professional Chef in an upscale restaurant in Soho NYC

3. Fashion Designer (so many Asians breaking out in this field.. sighh I could’ve been one of them.. perhaps….. )

Hella annoyed, these days, I am. Not because I think I’m superior than that person, no. (edit| after talking to my brother: who was i kidding, it’s all out of cockiness and self-righteousness. lol) Simply because the personalities just don’t fit. Just ain’t in harmony. And God said, love love love.

Every Sunday when I have hater thoughts in my head, it seems like the sermon just happened to be about, loving your enemy. No, not even enemy, just, anyone. And I say, okay then! I shall love — slowly, gradually I’ll transform myself..! And then, being the lowly human that I am, within hours, it’s back to drinking that haterade. Damn… us people. And so after weeks I say, Okay, God, I’ll try, but you gotta cut me some slack. If i don’t vent, and talk some “trash” and what not, I will explode, and really become a hater instead of a Lover. sighhhhhhh…  Transformation? That only comes when one’s TRULY in Him. And I guess, I am far from it as of yet.

Oy, God how DO you love us so?

it is the truth

<3 Lupe.

and watch Blood Diamond: <3 Leonardo.

Romans 1:18 – 2:13ish

The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of men who suppress the truth by their wickedness… his eternal power and divine nature– have been clearly seen… so that men are without excuse.

For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man…

Although they know God’s righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them.

You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things. Now we know that God’s judgment against those who do such things is based on truth. So when you, a mere man, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God’s judgment?

…But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God’s wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed.

All who sin apart from the law will also perish apart from the law, and all who sin under the law will be judged by the law.

after watching How To Lose a Guy in 10 Days & Hitch i really am nostalgic for NYC. Downtown, midtown, uptown, all of it.

There’s a scene in Hitch, where Sarah & Hitch leave Sarah’s apartment one fine morning (after he recovers from that hideousss allergic reaction lol) and I recognized the actual scene location. Right in Soho– in the background you can see a mini street corner market that I’d once taken a photo of while wandering around downtown!!

i loved this flower stand.

And this isn’t the exact pictures of the street Eva Mendes’ character lives in but a block or 2 down from it:

Oh, NYC. How I long to return to youuuu

this gloomy, cold, fall-like weather in the middle of summer is perfect for watching a movie like Garden State.

and then sitting in front of the window, legs propped up on desk, listening to New Slang by The Shins or some quirky song by Rilo Kiley, sipping on Chai Latte and …perhaps.. looking through some old-school comics. hehehe

His performances are so hotamazingggg. The intro-talk? ehhh.. hahhaha, pero, I liked the last part: Never underestimate the power of “I’d like that”. hmmm :B

one of his many songs i likey.