the happy wanderer

to be a korean is to always struggle to be a mainstream follower… sigh… there’s always a “pop” attached to that K. There seems to be no individuality or sense of one’s own self in Korean media… thought… news… culture. everything. jeebus. lol the worst place to be if you want to discover who you really are. ( i still like my kpop, but im not so proud of knowing the latestkpop hit singles or celebs or shows out now…. quite so.)

glad I have the “American” to attach to my being Korean. balances out a bit..

anyway.

i wish i wasn’t so lazy so i could take up sports like Kick-boxing and Hip-hop dancing. Those are 2 things I’d really like to do. especially dancing. man. i wish i could do routine dances. it only amounts to practice and some sense of rhythm.. and flexibility.. and coordination.. lol. i envy those asian girls on dance teams like UCLA’s or yknow, like Irvine’s Kaba Modernnnn. gah… but who has the time, or management skills, to dedciate to all that popping and what not. you do? cool, i don’t [have the management skills].

it’s 2:30 am. i had no caffeine, but i am wide awake and restless. wanna go kick & box. and dance.