the happy wanderer

Right now is not the time.. it’s not up to me. It’s all in His time. Time? so precious. So restricting. When you want to savor the moment, it zooms by. When you wish you could just get through this pain-stricken moment, it stands still.

But all in all, it’s steadfast, unchanging and what happens in the intervals designated by the shifting shadows is controlled by God. God who loves me so. He’s already arranged the happenings, and one by one I endure through– enjoy through.. these chapters.

There are moments that others have never experienced, that God has blessed me with. Hard or easy, I’m so thankful, because I’ve learned. and I was loved. There are yet moments that others have experienced and I haven’t… Perhaps I’m never meant to? Perhaps my path just requires these things to come later. Either way, I wait. anticipate? I shan’t be weawry, shan’t worry, shan’t complain, because it’s all from His love for me.

How great and magnificent is He. My love for Him falters, strays, withers, and yet His for me stands strong, holds its warm presence around me. God I’m sorry. God, I thank You. God, I’m constantly sorry and furthermore, at fault, for realizing my mishaps and faults and still, letting them take control.

And yet… Your Love never fails. It’s all in Your time…

Lord, give me the right mindset to wait, patiently.

[this was not a planned entry.. it was just what popped up in my head... wrote it freely without much organization some time ago. ]