the happy wanderer

i’m so conflicted. wordly desires.. laziness… unnecessary indulgence, comfort, luxury… i keep wanting it all. and yet at the back of my mind i’m saying.. where did my discipline go? (if i ever had any) where’s my conviction? (if i was ever so convinced) …where’s the obedience?! the Love, the passion?! did i ever truly let any of this consume me? where’s God in my life. lukewarm lukewarm lukewarm. story of my life.