the happy wanderer

I read her blog.. and I think ah, so simple and straight forward.

I read another person’s blog and think, wow so obscure and artsy and interesting.

How do i write? IDK. i’m very undecided on my style of writing rambling…I like both. (:

Tonight was a very distracted and lazy night. I think I try to slow the night down, to prevent tomorrow from coming just yet, by acting slowly, lazily, and unproductively. I stayed up cramming last night and somehow the night passed without me even being able to recall much from yesterday. So I need to make up for it. I think I want each day to go by slower… I don’t want to wake up one day and think, where did my youth go..

I’ve decided to try to take a chill pill. and cheel out. I’m always telling others to do so. Might as well take my own advice. I like people who are so down and comfortable to be around. (mmm i guess everyone does..?) Not monotonous, no. Not necessarily calm. I like people who act sky blue and not nasty orange.. (:

So, they say what you put in is what you get out. Likewise, the way you act towards someone will be returned in a more or less similar manner. Hostility invites hostility. Happiness evokes further happiness. I act nice, then she acts nice. I become more honest to myself and so does he. I think it makes sense. I think it’s practical. but idk why i still dont trust this mutuality. So selfish.. so self-focused. Receive receive receive, and no give? No!