the happy wanderer

and bitterness and self-pity runs through. and it collides with wisdom. and is ganged up on by acceptance and compassion, and so scatters off. love oversees

I like how Korean dramas are finally coming to terms with reality. The realistic love stories. It’s not as passionate and fantastic as previously, making the teen girls (or I guess.. all girls) fall over in giddy-ness/false hope lol. But then again, it still is fiction, and it still revolves around very good looking men and women. haha

>>The World They Live in tehehe.. i love the OST

I just got done with reading an article about the Theatre of the Absurd (basically marking Modern plays) and it too talks about coming to terms with reality. Up until this movement(?) literature just sugar-coated everything. Even if it was “tragic” it left you with a nice moral and good feeling. But that apparently isn’t how the real world turns. Nope. We need the fragments and collages of random harsh grotesque images of reality in order to really experience the human condition… (hahahha.. i only know what i’m talking about because i just read the article. i think if i were to read this later i’d be like.. wtheck!) And in this way we’d be freeing ourselves of the disappointment and hopelessness that is our reality… by facing it and accepting it. Depressing? perhaps. It’s not supposed to be though, according to these uh.. Absurdists.

No need for that for Christians though. We’re freed by God’s grace Not by facing the reality of THIS world..

So yea. This was a nice outlet for random thoughts. I am currently at 0 out of 6 pages for a rough draft to be collected this afternoon. I spent 5 hours reading and highlighting the article itself, which should’ve been read a couple of days ago. dahhhh..  And after a spamwich (simply the unhealthy snack of spam, bread and ketchup loll.. don’t hate) and a nice entry on my blog and a nice browse through random facebook pictures. I am ready to brainstorm/outline.. not quite writing the actual paper though.. sigh.

peace out. let it be a good one.

[edit] really random ‘favorite’s: the number 2, color purple, and the words maverick and futile (i hope this doesn’t explain any part of me lol.. but yea tis a good word to use in papers.. hahah so useful. which is also kind of sad, cause it just shows how much of this world is seen as .. futile.)

aigoo.. him deul dah, him deul dah…

not talking about school work, although that’s hard as well. that’s just a menial thing..

but being a 19 year old girl/daughter/friend is hard.

=B

Sighh… with this song playing at a high volume through my speakers… I had to write an entry. Ahh~~~

What a wonderful weekend. In the sense that I’m glad “stuff” happened. It wasn’t the best weekend, no.. it started off bad actually. But the 3 days for sure proved that things happen for a reason, and that I was able to wake up and realize what awesome roommate(s) I have. Friends that truly like me for who I am, no matter how flawed I am..

>> money in the bank! I think it’s such a funny phrase.. I GOT MONEY IN THE BANK MAAANE. NAM’ SAYIN?  .. JK i am actually running low with my debit account… gotta wait for next month’s paycheck! gotta cut down on eating out so dang much. :/ gotta cut down on Jamba Juice lol

I miss mommmyyyyy soooo much and obba! gahhh gahhhgahhhhh. I can’t help but to mention this in every entry. cause i freaking do. so much. sighh.. It occurred to me how kinda sad it is that my mom doesn’t really have complete meals after a hard day’s work because she doesn’t have any motivation to cook a decent meal. I mean, she just has some bap, kimchi, kim and .. yea some other random banchan… But she’s got no one to cook for. In that way I feel my brother and I need to fly over right NOW and give her a reason to feed herself some good food. sighh oori umma~ I miss that woman. that dear dear selfless beautiful lady.

I am learning to move on. Move along~ It’s good to wait and hope for some things, and then at some point you realize there’s no sense in doing that. and you gosta move on~ and be wise about it lol. So I shall. hehhahahho It’s a good feeling.

twas another random entry of mine. PEACE! <3

mmmhm. gah what a creative genius.

don’t judge? Christians, being more aware of what is right and wrong (to put it simply), seem to be more apt to judge.. (ok over-generalization– but i don’t feel like explaining exceptions or rebuttals and contradictions and what not).

>>human nature. that it’s natural of us to be wicked?.. ….. yeh.

We Judgers are at fault. “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye”

We who feel we’re being judged by the self-righteous are at fault.. sensitive to others’ judgment of us, because we know we’ve done wrong. point blank.

oyyyy

_______ completely unrelated. idk.. i wish i could dance like these dudes.. haha

[edit// the first one's better.. not only cause it's in Atlanta's Hartsfield airport. ]

(features Ben Chung back in the day, wayyyy before Jabbawockeez. “Terminal Ilness” pfft so clever~)