the happy wanderer

and it’s like.. the less you care. the more free you are.

how care less can you be? to be free enough?

how care less can you be? without reaching the danger zone?

is there even a clear distinction? or just some gradient… no way around it.

caring about people in a compassionate way. caring about what people think about you. caring about others caring. caring about sufferers. caring about others you think are happier than you. caring about caring too much.. too little. por que senor?

Maybeee, necesitamos solamente tener interés en nos Salvador. Entonces habría no mas confusión innecesaria….?

i can feel good change

Acting out of love. Saying things out of love. Not testing people. Not being such jerks.

Make someone smile. Make their day. Don’t just make the days of people you like; that’s too easy yo. But reach out to someone who.. usually doesn’t get their day made by people. That person way over there. Be compassionate ahhhhhh~ And I don’t just mean people of your age, people in your little social sphere, but the old lady or man who goes down Sproul collecting bottles from the trashcans or the man on the corner of Telegraph and Bancroft who always greets and blesses people with a smile. Those people over yonder. We shall make their day, week, month.. year~

(LOL Paul is soo cute in this..)

I love The Beatles. I noticed lots of people have these phases where they completely forget about The Beatles for a while and all of a sudden there’s this nostalgic attraction towards their music and you go through days of just non stop Beatles on your iTunes I spent all night YouTubing The Beatles yesterday because a friend sent the above link. and i just thought it was so cuteee! Gahh they are brilliant. sighh.. They couldn’t have been placed in a better time or place to become the cultural legends (is that redundant?) they are now. sooooo interesting~

I thank my daddy for letting me grow up listening to The Beatles, The Beach Boys, The Three Tenors, Sarah Brightman, Eric Clapton, John Denver, Mozart… etc etc. Good music.

Oh, almost forgot, Frank Sinatra and Louis Armstrong!

[hehehe here's just a random entry from Xanga from sometime during Spring 2008. I crossed out some parts that I think a littleeee differently about now]

talked to a random man while Sprouling/campaigning for Sarah today and…

I realized, how weak I am as a Christian. and also, how hard it is to defend Christians when you yourself are repulsed by the way some act.. Can they even claim to be Christian? It’s not just about the faith.. you got to have the deeds part too. how many can actually say they have the desire to help others less fortunate than us, to try to be selfless. I know I’m pretty selfish and many times ignore the homeless people even around berkeley.. I’m too absorbed in satisfying my needs…

“Faith without works is what might be called intellectual assent or agreement with a Christian set of teachings, but it would be an incomplete faith. True faith transforms our conduct as well as our thoughts. If our lives remain unchanged, we don’t truly believe the truths we claim to believe.”

I’m starting a project specifically on Korean Christians for my Anthropology research paper. It’s mostly focused on the social aspect of Korean church life, not the religious (which is kind of sad in itself) ….

So many of us are absorbed in our little bubbles.. Yea we go on mission trips.. Yea we might volunteer once a month (or.. year.. or not at all) at a homeless shelter.. but that’s probably just a way to “fulfill requirements” like you would for a club you want to claim membership for. Would we have done that if our friends weren’t participating? Would we have done it if it wasn’t organized as some.. Saturday activity by our leaders? No…

Gahh.. No wonder people are so critical of us. We talk the talk, but hardly ever walk the walk. We choose all teh easy things to do, like praising hardcore, going to service, listening to sermons and attending prayer meetings on the side, even in the early mornings… but that’s as far as many of us go. (I’ll admit, I don’t do all of that) If we truly believed in all that we claim to, it would show without us having to proclaim, I’m a Christian… it would show to NON-churchgoers, not just to your fellow believers.

It’s so hard to keep up with everything. I can honestly say I fit under all these criticisms… and that probably tomorrow, when my dissatisfaction with all this wears off, I probably won’t go right off and change my ways or read the Bible more often or pray every night (if at all)…
but at least I’m aware? .. Wait, no. I was aware before and I didn’t do much about it. Awareness is not enough.
Okay… so i’m just like everyone else…..

To actually act on what I know and want to fix is… freaking hard! Self control… I think I lack so much of it.. Discipline, control, motivation. Even with academics, or dealing with people.. Especially with being a Christian…

*ON A TOTALLY DIFF NOTE: a Gmail chat with my mommy. HAHHA i larb her. but you can only have access to the convo if you can read Korean lol. i tell her how to respond to me on it in the beginning just incase she doesn’ tknow how. lol

me: 우리오마니~~

me: 내도, 오마니가 무지무지 자랑스러워예~~

(사투리)

엄마, 너무 무리 하지말고, 행복하게 지네요!!!~ 나는 이만~

Clean slate!

Clean my room. Reorganize my desk. Clear my mind. Reorganize my thoughts.

File some things into the “Past” folder. I shan’t refer to those thoughts anymore; they consume a lot and they distract a lot.

Clutter be gone~

(thanks Roy for the link!)

>>better quality at juststopandthink.com

watch till the end if you’re gonna watch

We’ve said we’re amazed. We’ve said we love God. I’ve said I believe. and yet, it’s amazing how much more we can learn/realize everytime we hear the word. How much deeper you can affirm the truth. ..

___________ [random past entry from Xanga, below] ____________

it’s amazing how God created such a thing as.. scars.
How Time can actually heal wounds. and yet, only heal.
How physical wounds, tears in our flesh, can be healed– but not so that they disappear. Scars remain.
..it’s amazing how emotional and mental pain can be healed with Time. How wounds in our hearts can become better with time, and yet even though years may pass, there’s still remnants of that wound. It doesn’t cause as much pain, but it will never go away completely.
Time can heal. Medicine can treat. but they don’t quite cure…
Memories remain.