the happy wanderer


momma & obba park!
August 31, 2008, 7:39 am
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my mom called me earlier in the afternoon to tell me she was on her way with 2 of her friends down to DESTINNNN, Florida~ hahhaa so cute! She was all excited because my brother rented them out a place right on the beach. Ballllerrrrr! So glad she can finally get a nice break. (working 5 or sometimes 7 days a week!) I’m heppyyy for her and the other two ahjummas~ :D I can just see the 3 little Korean ladies cruisin down the interstate with a car packed with korean gwaja, headed towards the white sandy serene beaches of Florida where the water is clear~ They even told me they prepared their swimming suits and all. hahahahhaha awwww so cute. soooo cute.

hahahahha what is she doing?! i think she posed in the middle of putting on her sweater. hahah what a cutie.

hahahahha what is she doing?! i think she posed in the middle of putting on her sweater. hahah what a cutie.

and I just got off the phone with my brother who’s simply having another one of his chill weekends with ze homies at some bar or something. idk, he’s a grown man now. gahh i miss him though.. :( We used to fight so much. but like funny fighting. hahahha.. which reminds me: Once we were going through a training session for me to get tougher so I could fight off bullies or something, later on in life y’know. hahahha.. and so he tied one of his huge pillows (the extra long ones) on me with a belt (lol!) and this pillow was like big enough to almost cover me head to toe, and then he covered me with the comforter. and… he went out into the hall…. ran into the room and tackled me so hard that i’d go flying in the air (… sorta heheh) onto the bed. Yep, so incase I ever got tackled by some kid at school, i’d be ready? … yea.. i think that was the idea. :P

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Old school. (Check out the inside out and upside down comic books as well as the oldddddd apple computer! lol) :)

hmm so yea momma and obba are doing good. I’m doin good. Starting to feel the pressure of fall semester upon me, but tis okay cause life is good anyway! God is awesome. My family is heppy. I’m heppy. and I’m full from the curry I just cooked for the first time. ehehehe I am now ready to knock out and sleep the night away~

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Sentimental Note
August 25, 2008, 10:19 am
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A quote I just felt like jotting down while watching my late night k-drama :]

“The moment that love begins, it begins with solitude as well. That endlessly sweet yet bitter taste. The black hole in the rosy light. But.. Once again, we call someone’s name.”

It sounds better in Korean haha.. and makes more sense, especially the last line, within the context of the whole scene and story of “My Sweet Seoul” (starring Lee Sun Gyun. sighh~)

“To be human is to feel lonely.” At first it sounds really depressing and a bit pathetic. But, it can be seen in a brighter light; because we know what loneliness is like, we can thus truly know what it means to feel warmth and comfort in someone’s presence. :

(We were lost and alone, but now we’re found in Jesus. <3)

Gotta endure the bad to enjoy the good! they go hand in hand~

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QUOTES de la realidad!
August 23, 2008, 6:15 am
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Something to make up for aesthetics and the long entry ahead. lol
“]A PAHNDA! [Zoo of Atlanta '07]

Currently reading: The Constant Gardener.

I got up to Ch.3 (they’re quite long! for a non-reader like me) before coming to Berkeley and then I put the reading on hold because of chem. Then yesterday, I picked it up, dust it off, and started reading again.. from the beginning haha.

Some quotes that I’d previously highlighted.
(BTW, this book is a <3 story.. but that’s a very minor part. It’s about humanitarianism in Africa. Specifically, Kenya.. and how corrupt the diplomacy there and everywhere else is. How all the aid business looks excellent on paper, but not quite so in practice. ) Anyhow~~ :)

A scene describing the irony of a diplomat’s residence on some special day:
“… the national flag will be flying in the garden, the sprinklers will be turned off, the red carpet will be laid out, black servants in white gloves will be hovering, just as they did in the colonial times we all piously disavow. And the appropriate patriotic music will be issuing from the host’s marquee.”

Excerpt describing a slave girl whose beloved master? owner? madam? was murdered:
“Only Esmeralda was not weeping. Instead she wore that wooden look that whites mistake for chulishness or indifference. Woodrow knew it was neither. It was familiarity. This is how real life is constituted, it said. This is grief and hatred and people hacked to death. This is the everyday we have known since we were born…”

I’m realizing these clips aren’t as significant out of context lol… oh well~ I like posting these up. hehehe

Here’s a bit I chuckled at in Cafe Strada…
“Mildren had a permanent pout. Seated at his desk he looked like a naughty fat boy who has refused to finish up his porridge.” kehhehee

Completely irrelevant, but cute :)

Okdoke, so here comes a super duper long quote. I was gonna just put a bit, but then I kept skimming and it’s altogether pretty worthy to be blogged. … Maybe I should just convince you (whoever) to go and read this…. I’m making a big deal cause I honestly don’t read much, if at all. And I actually find this stuff very useful for my awareness and time. :)

Tessa asking about what Woodrow thought about the documents she’d provided to him about all the corruption, etc..

“Why can’t you do anythign about them?”

Woodrow, hating how he sounds: “Because we are diplomats and not policemen, Tessa. The Moi government is terminally corrupt, you tell me. I never doubted it. The country is dying of AIDS, it’s bankrupt, there is not a corner of it, from tourism to wildlife to education to transport to welfare to communications, that isn’t falling apart from fraud, incompetence and neglect. Well observed. Ministers and officials are diverting lorry-loads of food aid and medical supplies earmarked for starving refugees, sometimes with the connivance of aid agency employees, you say. Ofcourse they are. Expenditure on the country’s health runs at $5 per head per year and that’s before everybody from the top of the line to the bottom has taken his cut. The police routinely mishandle anybody unwise enough to bring these matters to public attention. Also true. You have studied their methods. They use water torture, you say. They soak people, then beat them, which reduces visible marks. You are right. They do. They are not selective. And we do not protest. They also rent out their weapons to friendly murder gangs, to be returned by first light or you don’t get oyur deposit back. The High Commission shares your disgust, but still we do not protest. Why not? Because we are here, mercifully, to represent our country, not theirs….”

“And you have British business interests to represent,” she reminds him playfully.

“That is not a sin, Tessa,” he retorts… “Commerce is not a sin. Trading with emerging countries is not a sin. Trade helps them to emerge, as a matter of fact. It makes reforms possible. The kind of reforms we all want. It brings them into the modern world. It enables us to help them. How can we help a poor country if we’re not rich ourselves?”

“Bullshit.
Specious, unadulterated, pompous Foreign Office bullshit, if you want its full name… Look around you. Trade isn’t making the poor rich. Profits don’t buy reforms. They buy corrupt government officials and Swiss bank accounts.

…So it’s file and forget. Right? The mother of democracies is once more revealed as a lying hypocrite, preaching liberty and human rights for all, except where she hopes to make a buck.”

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“Coffee Shop” by Landon Pigg
August 21, 2008, 3:40 am
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Watching People Watching Rain

Watching People Watching Rain

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i like cafes. i like how they’re dimly lit in the evenings and there’s a constant bustling around you. but you can easily tune it all out with whatever’s at hand. i love the smell of freshly brewed coffee. doesn’t everyone~ i love having your own private spot in a public space for as long as you want… sorta. i feel like i’m in a movie scene. i feel at ease. and i like people watching..

“Well I’m just people watching
The other people watching me
And we’re all people watching
The other people watching we
We’re as lonely as we wanted to be…

I see so many feet going so many ways
People passing by, they got nothing to say
All on our own, just watching and confused…”

NYC and Berkeley is definitely where it’s at– for people watching.

i also like apple-cider. I Love apple-cider. i’m ready for autumn i think~

Summer is gonna be leaving soon. So long sweet summerr~ Next time we meet, i shall enjoy your presence even more! I shan’t neglect you as i did the past few weeks :)

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ENFJ and P. Eugene
August 21, 2008, 3:27 am
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[This is a post from May 7th or something.. from my old blogspot.. that i only wrote in 3 times lol.]

wait what? am i overbearing? suffocating? do i really go overboard with relationships and how i act or what i say?

apparently somewhat… according to the personality test site or whatever, as an ENFJ, im all of the above and more.. that’s more of the negative aspects.. there were lots of good stuff too. like wanting to make others happy… and becoming happy off that. which i think is true.. but sometimes i care too much about others being a good mood that im not aware of how bad i might feel or whatever.

and i experienced all this tonight.
ormaybe after reading all the traits of an ENFJ, im just more aware… and self-concious. (like i wasn’t enough alread!! gahhh)

today was pastor eugene’s last ficb sermon. or… just lecture i guess. it was very interesting.. and i wish i coudl store all the wise things he said.. i tried hard.. but now that i try hard to recall those things.. i can’t seem to remember! Tis pretty sad… he’s so full of excess knowledge. academic knowledge seems to be a given with him since he graduated with civil engineering major at berkeley.. but yea.. film knowledge… literature.. world news.. environmental issues… relationships…and ofcourse all of this tied with God’s word. Pretty amazing.

He reminds me of my dad. My dad was seirously the wisest person I knew. and although i admit i’m being biased.. even if he weren’t my dad and i knew of all the knowledge he posessed and shared, i’d say he was a pretty darn wise man. wisdom is so precious and something i wish i had more of.

one thing that stuck in my head from p.eug’s sermon .. or lecture (a good lecture!)
“Bad things happen fast. So that implies that all good things take time.” Especially with relationships. And this i believe soo strongly.

I want to care less about what others think. I want to care less about impressing others. I want to care more about glorifying God.. about being fitting in his eyes. If I sought after God more, none of the petty things I get upset about would matter.

“What are your plans after you graduate?”
What P.Eug reallllyyyyy deeeeeep down wanted to say: ” Oh, I’m gonna follow God.”

wow. tis the best plan ever. and yet so hard to actually take that path..
why?

I was made in His image. I should be happy with who I am.
Jesus suffered so unbelievably much. I should be focused on living for God.
Humility is what I need. Self appreciation is what I also need.

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